अगली बार

थोड़ा रुक  तो लो, अच्छा ठीक है जाओ, 

अच्छा सुनो, एक बात पूछनी थी , नहीं रहने दो ,

अच्छा सुनो, कुछ शिकायतें हैं , पर करूँगा नहीं ,

एक बात बोलूं , अगली बार आना न तो मेरी हो के आना !

मतलब  की पूरी की पूरी मेरी हो के ,

अगली बार आना न तो मेरा नहीं तो मेरे आंसुओ की सुन लेना !

अगली बार आना न तो थोड़ा मेरे लिए भी लड़ना !

अगली बार आना न तो थोड़ा  मेरे से भी मोहब्बत कर लेना !

अगली बार आना न तो थोड़ा सोच के आना शायद अगली बार मैं तुम्हे जाने न दूँ !

लेकिन अगली बार आना जरूर, तुम्हारा तो पता नहीं पर मेरी महब्बत अभी अधूरी है! 

अगली बार आना जरूर!

Journey of being a Stone

 I fell, I stumbled,

I couldn't stand, I couldn’t walk,

I stopped, I stayed,

Weather Changed, Climate Changed,

It rained; Sun scorched,

It Stormed, It freezed,

I stuck it out, I stayed,

Then, tears dried,

Then, pain reduced,

Then, feelings reduced,

Then, emotions lost,

Still, I stayed

Then, I stopped feeling,

Then, I stopped laughing,

Then, I stopped getting angry,

Then, I stopped Crying,

Then, I stopped being a human,

And, then I slowly changed from human to stone.

Yes, I am soul less, heart less, emotion less,

Yes I am a stone, a brutal stone.

मरना अभी बाकी है!

अभी अभी लग रहा था की मर चुका हूं,

 फिर याद आया कि अभी मुझे तुझे  किसी और के लिए,

 लाल जोडे में देखना बाकी है, मेरा मरना अभी बाकी है!

कमी क्या थी?

 

कभी कभी सोचता हूं, हर किसी का मुक्कमल तो हो ही जाता है,

कमी क्या थी मेरे मोहब्बत में, 

क्या मेरे शज़दे में कमी थी?

क्या मेरे शिद्दत में कमी थी?

क्या मेरे भरोसे में कमी थी?

क्या मेरे में कमी थी ?

I Changed

 

People Say You have changed, I say, Yes,

I Changed not to Feel,

I Changed not to Love,

I Changed not to Laugh,

I Changed not to Smile,

I Changed to Hate,

I Changed even to Hate thyslef, 

People Say, You Have Changed, I say, Yes, I Do.

Story of Each Moment without you!

 

I never wanted to let you go but I couldn't do much about it,

Don't get me wrong, letting you go didn't mean that I have stopped loving you,

I just did what you wanted me to do, that was perhaps the best for both of us,

As you didn't want to spend a single day with me anymore, You were clear, I was not,

I broke, I fell, I burnt, I collapsed, I scrambled and I died, not because of you but because what I feel for you, 

I knew that It would not have been easy for you too, but I can express, but you couldn't,

Sometimes I wish things would have worked out differently, 

May be I had met you under different circumstances,

May be I had met you different time or place,

May be I had something in me that would have stopped you for a while,

Its being a while now, but nothing has changed for me,

I know you are strong, you have moved on strongly, 

I know you do not want to see me or bring me in your thoughts even for a second,

I know that's your best quality and I will always fall for it time and time again,

I will still suffocate in your eyes and your smile time and time again, 

You have gone for forever, feeling of it is destroying me, killing me every moment,

My perplexed mind will kill me forever if I hold you now as I am scrambling to death each and every passing moment.